“I cry aloud with my voice to the LORD; I make supplication with my voice to the LORD.  I pour out my complaint before Him; I declare my trouble before Him.” Psalm 142:1-2 (NASB).  Supplication!  Complaint!  Trouble!  God is big enough for you to tell Him all that is in your heart.  He already knows.  You need to say it.  You need to be honest in your praying.  It is one way that you turn it all over to the Lord.  The Father is prepared to hear your cries of anguish.  Being honest before God is the first step to becoming what He is shaping you to be.